Tuesday, July 5, 2011

last post!

Patton was born on April 23rd 2011. The day before Easter. We had some complications and Patton had to taken to a NICU in Sacramento, where he spent the next nine days on oxygen and then two more days trying to gain weight and prove he could breathe on his own. He left the hospital with a clean bill of health. He is such a miracle to us and brings such a beautiful spirit to our home. We are glad to have him here and healthy! We love you Patton!

Monday, April 18, 2011

40 weeks!!

So I'm due tomorrow. Still no contractions or anything so I'm gonna guess at my dr. appointment tomorrow he is gonna say that we are gonna set an induction date. I'm hoping it's by the end of the week! Meanwhile it's just a waiting game.... hurray up and get here before I go crazy!! Also, Im so swollen everywhere! I'm ready to be back to my old self!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

The Nursery pictures!

The nursery is finally complete. We are officially done buying things until the baby gets here and so everything is tucked away. So, I realize that part of it looks really crowded but everything has a purpose and I think it will be very functional and easy to stay organized so here it is...

So this is my little nursing station. I have everything (including chocolate for mom) to nurse or pump within reach. Also, Parker bought me this glider for Christmas and the crib he bought me for my baby shower... He is the best husband ever !

In this picture frame is a copy of a poem Parker wrote about love when he was 6. It is the sweetest thing ever.

The diaper station. The underneath is well stocked and ready to go!

Last but not least, the closet! I have so many outfits that I'm not sure he'll get to wear all of them but what else was I supposed to do for the last 9 months but buy cute things?! BTW all the clothes on the right side of the closet are newborn size... I'll have to change his outfit 4 times a day to make sure he gets to wear them all :) And I hung his socks on the wall because they are too cute not to look at!

36 week picture that I promised...

Friday, March 25, 2011

36 weeks

I know I haven't posted in a hundred years but I have been so out of it that I really haven't done anything in a while. Also, I dont have a picture yet because I haven't gotten myself together enough to look decent for a picture but I promise to get one going for tomorrow.

So this post is a depressing one. If you were hoping for sweet thoughts and all that then it's not your lucky day! haha.

I am so tired of being pregnant and today was one of those days ( which I don't have very often) where I can't stop thinking about how miserable I feel. I want this done! I always have aches and pains but today I just want to cry about them...

I am tired of being tired all the time. Even when I have a rare night that I sleep well I end up really needing a nap in the middle of the day. At night I am so exhausted from just holding myself up all day but I lay down to go to sleep and my back starts to hurt and my ribs hurt, man do they hurt! I lay on one side until the pain is unbearable then try to switch to the other side and wait for it again. The other problem is, is that my belly is so heavy and huge now that it requires a huge effort just to turn over. It is so painful. Not to mention this whole time I can't breath so you can imagine how out of breath I get by flopping around all night.

My new thing is to try to sleep sitting up... what a joke. So, I just lay there miserable looking up things on my iphone like, " What are the possibilities of early labor?"or " How can I convince my dr. not to let me go past my due date?" or I try to find baby blogs with women who are just as miserable as I am.

So, during the day all I can do is try to stay awake long enough to accomplish at least one thing... do the dishes, fold the laundry, pick up the living room... some days all I can manage to do is text Parker that I appreciate that he is understanding and working so hard while I just sit here.

I think emotionally that has been the hardest thing, feeling completely useless. I know I am very pregnant but I still want to live... I want my husband to come home to a clean house and dinner ready. I want to tell him all the things I did that day. I want to look pretty for him when he gets home. I feel like right now it's impossible to do all those things everyday. I hate it.

Not to mention that when you can't do anything, when all you do is sit and think about how much time you have left and wishing it were over, it makes it 10x worse!

Wow, what a pity party. I'm sure anyone who has ever been pregnant is thinking... "ya join the club, that's just what happens" and they are right. I just needed to vent and this seemed like a good place to do it so that way if it's too annoying you can just stop reading! haha.

I am way excited to just have my baby here and I am so grateful to be pregnant at all but today was just one of those days!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

31 Weeks

I hadn't taken another picture in a while because I didn't think I had really changed but I have changed quite a bit. I'm surprised. I kinda rounded out.

So up til now, whether I knew it or not, has been all peaches and cream because that pregnancy misery I had been hearing about is here.

My whole tummy is sore all the time and the baby is up in my lungs and it's hard to breath. Also, my hands and feet are way swollen, I am itchy like crazy, I have restless leg syndrome so bad that I can't sit still or lay down for longer than a couple minutes, I am starting to not be able to bend over and I feel like my " baby bump" weighs 100 pounds. Also, I have started having some problems with my blood pressure being too high so now I have to rest before and after everything I do, which is less fun than it sounds.

Have I mentioned that I still have 9 weeks to go!! Nine long weeks!

Also, I am super excited!!! I only have 9 weeks to go! I have baby showers coming up and that will be super fun! Parker is working on finishing our crib. The baby room is pretty much done. And I can't believe that I get to have a real baby in there soon! hurray!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Week 28... Third Trimester

I don't know why my picture is so blurry but there it is, my supposedly HD camera. Anyway, I finally made it to the third trimester! I am really hoping time starts to go by faster because I can't wait! On my calendar I have each week written down what number week I am. It's nice to start seeing some higher numbers!

I am really working on moving more and eating as good as I can because I would love to stop packing on the weight each month :) What a lovely side effect of pregnancy. My other new fun things include not being able to sleep at night, hot flashes, leg cramps, and heart burn. I realize it could be worse but ew!

The best things are... actually looking pregnant instead of just fat, feeling the baby really move and getting better kicks, and going to get pedicures since I can no longer comfortably reach my toes.

I know I am totally weird but lately when I am just laying there feeling the baby doing weird turns or whatever, I start feeling really sorry for the baby and having no room and being squished. I get that it is natural and it's not a problem but I can't help really feeling bad!

I also have really vivid dreams. They used to be about always leaving my baby somewhere or forgetting to feed it and that sort of neglectful thing. But in my dreams I didn't really care and this "baby" and I had no attachment and in fact I resented it for being such a nuisance. They were bad. Not the lovely dreams I had thought an expecting mother should have. BUT, just in the past couple weeks that has totally changed into dreams of having my baby that I actually love and I have real concern for it when I neglect it.... like when I left it at the grocery store, laying on a pile of apples. Boy, I'm gonna be a great mom! Hopefully, the dreams will just get better.

Anyway, I am getting Patton's room really put together. I don't want to post any pictures until it is totally done. So, I am trying to get that done. Trouble is that we stated to paint the crib but it looks like we will have to sand it down to keep it from chipping. So, we have to start all over again on that one. It might be a little while!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

almost 25 weeks

Everyone keeps saying that time will fly, well looking back... it hasn't. I can't believe I'm only a little more than half way there! Right now the focus is staying healthy despite my urge to eat everything in sight, all day long! I have started getting serious about putting together Patton's room. Once Parker's computer stuff is out of there I will take and post pictures :).

This Saturday is my cousin Rachel's( who is in the picture with me) baby shower and she is due February first which is really exciting! I can't wait to have my own though! It makes it harder when all my friends and now cousins are having their babies, it makes me more impatient if that's possible. I am just grateful to be having one at all.

Patton is kicking a lot more these days which is really fun. He's kind of a stinker because anytime someone wants to feel it he stops. Maybe he's just modest and doesn't like the attention. Must not be related to either Parker or me.

I'm getting bigger and more uncomfortable. I don't sleep well at night and I have a hard time sitting in our couch that kind of sinks in. I have to keep scooching to the edge and sit up straight so I can breathe. But all in all it not bad. I don't mind being pregnant... yet. I hope it stays pretty even like this because I am planning on having a lot more!